NEWS IN MY LIFE

Every artist will go through a time where they feel like they suck at drawing and that they'll never get better or they won't ever be as good as they want to be. And when they reach that level, they don't realize that they got there and want to get even better. I'm going through one of those times. I mean, I know I'm very talented for my age but I just don't feel like I'm as good as I want to be and I notice every little thing wrong in my pictures and it makes me hate them. Sometimes I love them, sometimes I hate them.

The one thing that really doesn't help are those people who don't know anything other than anime and say everything sucks thats not anime. Before when I drew crappy out of proportion anime style, everyone was saying "oooh! Nice art!" and "Love your style!". I never got a negative comment besides one of my brother's friends calling it stereotypical (Which he was right). As I started to drift away from anime, people started saying stuff " Learn how to draw better" Or "You suck at drawing" (And those are actual comments that I've gotten) which I had never gotten before and these are all on the past year or two. It strange how much the comments can change just from a change in style. All the negative comments I have ever gotten were from people who drew nothing but anime. It's people like that who art starting to make me hate the style in general (But I'm trying not to let the people ruin my judgement) You know, I've only met one person my age who is good at drawing and doesn't draw anime style. What ever happened to originality? I don't really like it when people say they want to draw like a certain artist. Its better to say that you want to get as good as them. Kind of like how Danny Antonucci and Dwayne McDuffy are my role models but I don't want to draw like them.

I don't think an artist is just someone who draws pictures to get attention. An artist is a person who puts all their effort into a picture and will spend whatever time it takes to complete it. Artists can feel their drawings when making them. When I draw a sad picture, I feel choked up. When I draw a happy picture, I feel light. If I draw a peaceful picture, I feel relaxed. Once I actually started crying because halfway through a picture, my computer froze and deleted the picture and I knew even if I tried again it wouldn't be as good as it was before. I feel it goes the same way with musicians and poets (Even though I'm not much of a poetry person). And it annoys the crap outta me when someone with real talent gets pushed to the side by some no talent person drawing nothing but stereotypical Naruto fanart and badly drawn unoriginal anorexic looking anime girls with big boobs and anime guys that you can't tell are guys until you read the artist comment. Does anyone actually enjoy that stuff? I just think it all looks the same. I love difference.

And I believe that most artists love praise. Personally, I'm one of those people. I mean, I enjoy critiques but that's mostly all I get. I'm starting to get used to it but the one thing that makes me feel better is that it shows that people are accepting me as a real artist and are actually taking me seriously. Thats another change I noticed that when I was an anime artist, no one EVER critiqued me besides my grandpa (Which I thank him. Haha, he did it when I was 8 and even younger). Starting out as an anime artist softened me up and now because of that, I need to learn to take them. It saddens me when people get offended them even though someone is just trying to help them. I just hope those people don't want to be professional artists.

What I have learned is that no one is going to take you seriously unless you can draw something other than anime unless you live in Japan. Most people don't know that most Japanese people hate foreigners and don't want Americans taking over their animation studios. Tell me how many non-Japanese names you see in the animation credits of an anime. You may think that you're the one exception that will make it to Japan but you most likely won't. I realized that when I was 11 and thats why I started to change. And it took until July 2007 to change it all the way (Thats where my last anime style picture is). Even my art teacher was taking me more seriously than anyone else in the class because she knew that I wanted to make a career of my art. Oh and by the way, you probably won't be able to make a living off of selling American manga either. You might get alot of money, but not enough to live off of unless you get really famous.

I don't think anyone who already knows this stuff will really read this but I think they have their own choice and go for whatever they want, even if they most likely won't make it (Heck, I want to be a producer for kid's shows on Cartoon Network but I know theres a good chance that won't happen). But its not my fault when their portfolio's get tossed from the art colleges because all they know how to draw is anime style.
Since before I can remember, I have always drawn. Cartoony from the beginning to when I was 5, Anime starting at five and only until I was just 13 or 14 I started to move away from it and in that year, I've gotten so much bad comments from anime artists and a lot of respect from professional artists.


But one last thing off topic. One critique I don't want to hear anyone say is that my lineart looks messy or shaky and that is the number one response I get. 1. I've always considered it to be a part of my style. 2. I try to make it as clean as I can. 3(The biggest one). I have tremors! And in my hands. If you don't know what tremors is : [link] I've even told people critiquing me not to say it it but they tell me anyways ways. Its a wonder I can even draw as good as I can. Makes me feel like punching them xD Someone told me to use thick lines but trust me, thick lines look horrible on my art and you'll just notice the shakiness even more.
Oh oh, look they even say on wikipedia: "difficulty writing or drawing"
I dunno. I've had like... 15 people say the same thing to me... It annoys me >.<

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Special Ed: I wanna go to Hawaii!
(Crank Yankers)
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PEOPLE

in order from favoite to least favorite.

People I am inspired by and I hope to be as good as them in:
CG skills (Or any computer drawn graphics) -


Turning American cartoons anime style (and/or their own style)-


fanart that looks like its from the show -


Some of these people belong in more than one group but I put them in the group I noticed more about them. ^^

Big Sister (left), sister-like friend (middle), and Cat.


Friends:


Coolzerz peoples:


Clubs:


Owner of this ring:

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